Whatever I do
You follow it too
From course to work
You have pushed through

If during our childhood
You remember, you were tortured
Now, that we’re old
You know you are nurtured

Anyway, lets fast-forward to the wedding day. I am in the church with my cam as I plan to document the wedding. So here’s me before the wedding ceremony starts.

Athan walks down the isle.

Athan waiting for Rina.

At last, Rina is here, walking the isle with a smile.

Exchange kisses with the parents.

Time to face the priest.

I really liked the way the priest told the love story of Rina and Athan, so I took this picture.

This is the blessing time with parents and sponsors.

The newly weds.

Kissing scene.

At the reception;

there’s games:

dancing:

dancing with money:

and another kissing scene:

I just had a pic with Rina at the reception, because during this time Athan is out to get women – just kidding – Athan was inviting the females to go catch the bouquet.

Congratulations Rina and Athan!

Keep that flame of love ALIVE!

One minute, I am so happy and in love. Just a blink of an eye, everything could change.

Thinking about it, why do we have to feel special for someone?

I now doubt myself if I do have the capacity to love, or I am just up for yet another challenge?

I guess, I am talking nonsense now. I am just tired! I just think my life would be better if it is over! (Sounds like suicidal – hehehe … just expressing.)

I just want to be loved, the way I would love someone else. Cared for, pampered … That’s why I keep falling for pretenders! They know how to act as if they care.

Those stupid ants ate my chocolates. Now, I lost my appetite on it. It was suppose to cure me from this misery.

Danny and Lindsay Wedding Day at the Municipal Hall

Alex and Izzie Wedding Day at the Church

Chase and Cameron Wedding at the Garden

Yehey!

I wasn’t as lucky on my clients task. I called all the Printing press listed on the phone directory, but no one would accept a brochure making for just one day. They said the fastest they could do is 3 days and that is already a rush up request.

Anyway as they sa, YOU CAN’T HAVE ALL THE LUCK. So, this time I was lucky in love … I could get a remedy for the clients task … why would they hire me if not for my creative mind

You may ask who fired me? The boss of all the bosses in my house – my daughter. As you may all know, during day time, I am a professional driver, yaya, financer, etc; in short a full time single Mom.

This morning, my daughter had her voice lesson, so I waited for her at the canteen of her school. Her teacher called me because she said, “Nature’s calling.” I got up and assisted my Hannah (my daughter) to the CR. While in the CR, she doesn’t seem to act like she wants to poo or wee, but she was playing with the water. So, I assumed she just wants to play with the water, so I took her out of the CR to go back to her class again. While going out she shouted, “Mommy, You’re FIRED!” I didn’t know where she heard that one, but mostly its a line from the TV, because like me, she loves watching TV. When she got back to her class, she started acting up and told her teacher (She speaks in english better than I do, so she uses it most of the time.), “I can’t do this anymore. I could not sing and dance!” Since it was nearing her time anyway, we got off early.

After her voice class, we then went to her other school that corrects her bad behavior. While in the car, I corrected her because while me and my Mom were talking, she keeps on disturbing. Upon correcting her, she shouted again, “Mommy, You’re FIRED!”

After her behavioral class, we then went to a mall to buy some things needed at home. At the shopping store, there was an ice cream kiosk that sells Php 5.00 for every scoop, which is quite cheap, so I bought one. Hannah was asking for one as well. I said, “You are not allowed to eat ice cream because the doctor prohibits you. You have ashtma, you are hyperactive and you are now caughing, it’s not good for you.” I was eating my ice cream in front of her, so she got angry again and shouted, “Mommy, You’re FIRED!”

There, I got fired more than I think I should have been, and that’s just the story I could remember, but I heard those words more than that today. As I have mentioned, regardless, I will still do my duty as a full time single Mom. I guess my daughter couldn’t fire me. I am the best she could have. That is why God chooses me to have her. Who could top that decission? No one else

To Hannah, if you read this one day, I know you will laugh so hard. You can’t fire me baby, and I won’t ever quit! I love you and your baby brother. Mommy has never been so proud for having the two of you.

Then, I watched Grey’s Anatomy, though the story between the characters I love; Alex and Izzie, is moving forward and is great, I feel that I am not into it as I was before.

Also, CSI New York; Danny and Lindsay, I couldn’t finish or watch the whole episode. I find myself pressing forward or skipping a scene.

Though I know a lot of good episodes are soon to come to those TV series, I am not excited.

I am over my TV addiction, and that is making me happy.

What has happened to me why I was over it?

Well, I somehow released a secret that I have been keeping for a long time, and a lot of people now knows about it. So it made me feel free.

PLUS, a compliment was given by someone special that made me realized … well well well … I don’t think I need to worry about my future in one aspect of my life.

So, there goes … I have my own love story to be happy about … I don’t need TV series to spark that feeling now. I am happy!

I sent a message to someone who has been a special part of my life, telling him the things that I wanted to express. I guess it made his new year better because he sent a reply stating that he almost cried when he read my message. It made me happy that he has forgiven me and that he has moved on and that he is happy now.

I feel that a thorn within me has been pulled out, so that seems to be a good way to start a new year as well.

Happy New Year everyone.

I guess I am not used to this, my Mom seems to be at peace now and I guess I know why.

This week we talked about relatives and how some woman would betray their husband. I told her, I can’t imagine why some people would do such things. Some would say, once you’ve had sex you will keep on looking for it. And I told my Mom, in my experience, only the first 3 months was hard, because it seems hard to adjust, but the next months are bearable and eventually, you won’t remember what sex is like.

Maybe, that was the reason my Mom is happy and making me salad. She finally believes that I am not having sex with anybody nor I am with anybody special right now.

I know I have had my times where I was a bitch. I have been into a relationship with married men. Actually, only the father of my kids is the one man “I think” is not married that I had sex with, and that I am not even certain. YES, I have had my bad times and I was a mess. That was my past and we all learn from our mistakes right? Some may be hard to absorb and we keep on repeating the same mistakes over and over and we keep on experiencing things over and over because lessons we need to learn has not been learned.

My Mom made a salad. She is happy and I am happy. My daughter loves my Mom’s salad as well, she was the one who finished the salad I brought with me here on my computer table.

A salad

So I have a Grey’s Anatomy marathon today

Also, I noticed I am into the “love scene” of the couple I like in the series.

Danny and Lindsay for CSI New York on “Snow Day” and Alex and Izzie for Gray’s Anatomy on “It’s the End of the World.”

(I really like the scenes above.)

Oh, before I forget, as usual Thursday I watched CSI New York’s latest episode today and the revelation of Lindsay being pregnant is somehow not the one I expected.

I’m pathetic, I know. BUT I know where I am going and it is just a process to heal me as a person and get me better. At least I am learning something about love and life.